Sunday, October 12, 2014

My voice



 
主题曲:《黑翼心灵》
主唱:林思彤
制作人:林倛玉
作词/作曲:林思彤
 
 
仿佛上一秒心跳已无法前进
有一些挣扎怎么都还要继续
现实让人沉迷 也让人窒息
就像墨菲定律
难以捉摸的剧情

 仿佛下一秒世界将碎成灰烬
破碎画面纠结着混乱的心情
黑夜渐渐逼近 却不留痕迹
吞蚀每个身影 和每一寸回忆

当黑翼找到了 迷失的心灵
也许爱也许恨 刺破了彼此生命
眼泪悄悄抗拒 却是那么透明 让人都看不清
但时间 将揭晓所有谜底 揭开所有黑翼的心灵

 仿佛下一秒世界将碎成灰烬
破碎画面纠结着混乱的心情
黑夜渐渐逼近 却不留痕迹
吞蚀每个身影 和每一寸回忆

当黑翼找到了 迷失的心灵
也许爱也许恨 刺破了彼此生命
眼泪悄悄抗拒 却是那么透明 让人都看不清
但时间 将揭晓所有谜底 揭开所有黑翼的心灵

还原所有疲惫的心灵
推翻所有故事的结局
就算一切变得多么不安定
总有一天会恢复那片宁静

当黑翼离开了 迷失的心灵
也许爱也许恨 不再刺破彼此生命
眼泪悄悄离去 一切成了过去 让人更加清醒
当时间 已揭晓所有谜底 解开所有黑翼的心灵
还原所有疲惫的心灵 推翻所有故事的结局

Within seconds, my heartbeats stops.
It had to continue even when I struggled.
It drown me, making me breathless...
The Murphy's Law
The unpredictable future.

It turns into ashes in the blink of an eye.
Pieces of memories triggers the emotions in me.
The darkness leaves no traces upon reaching
Swallowing the shadows and every piece of memories.
When the black shadow found it missing soul.
Love and Hate intrudes each other lives.
It's so hard to look through one's invisible tears.
But as time pass, it disclosed the black wing hearts.
Restoring all the tiring heart.
Overthrow the stories ending.
Despite all the storms,
Peace will eventually be restored.
As the black shadow leaves it's lost soul,
Even love/hate, it will not intrudes each other lives.
As tears leaves, it awaken us.
But as time pass, it disclosed the black wing hearts.
Restoring all the tiring heart.
This songs sings out part of my voice.
It's like I couldn't find my soul, and when I found it,
I lost them over a night again.
But as time passes, my tiring heart are slowly restoring.
and life is just like taking a one way train ride.
Walking and stopping, getting to know different people.
Some will accompany you to the next station while some are just passer-by.
You will not know who will walk with you till the end point.
人生就像是搭上单向列车,一路走走停停,相识的人来来往往
有些人陪你到下一站为止,有些人只是过客
到最后,不知道谁会陪你走到终点
 
 
 
 

Sunday, September 14, 2014

#IF i stay

















"Isn't it amazing how life is ONE THING, and then , in an instant, it becomes SOMETHING ELSE?"

We were once in love
Oh well,
Maybe one sided love.
This ONE THING,
over a rash decision of mine,
becomes SOMETHING ELSE.

The hope of you being my last,
all dashes in one night on 2nd November 2013.
Well...
I'm not sure why are you doing this,
when you tell all the others that im a joke in your life.
Then,
why are you caring?
I shouldn't be in your life anymore.
Just leave me alone,
I do not want to be in your life anymore.

Friday, July 25, 2014

Still love you.

8months has passed.
I still love you.
Don't you find it amazing ?
How can a person love someone so much without asking for any return?
No matter what you tell the others,
I still "cover" you, protect you.
Trying not to spoil your reputation.
Why am I such a silly person ?

Monday, June 23, 2014

doubts

I just don't understand your intention of it.
You have placed the memories into the past "box"
why are you doing this ?
Going around telling people those useless stuff ?
Trying to make yourself the heartless one ?
Or
Trying to make this past relationship a fool one ?

Why can't you just leave it to be a good memory between you and me?

I just wonder if you are my soulmate ?
If I can, I really hope that you are not..
I'm so attached to you now such that I can't put you down fast enough.
I know, i'm stupid enough.
Everyone is laughing, talking behind me.
People are asking why am I protecting you after all your hurting comments ?
But did they see your caring part ?
It's just hidden underneath...
Me and You = Future ?
Maybe not...
I just wish I could be there for you when you need someone to rely on.

Sorry im just a fool..

Friday, May 30, 2014

#MUCH MISSES

 I miss you dearly..

I wanna judge you..
but i can't bring myself too.
I wanna find your shortcomings,
but i see them as your forte..

I want you to be around me every minute every second ...
but you belongs to someone else ...
As long as you are happy,
im speechless.

I want to be around you ...
I want to give you my support, my care,
everything that i could.
But ...
I think i have to find another one to give everything.

I cannot describe my feelings...
It's like part of my soul howling and crying, seeking your companion.
But you ain't mine.
Much fiction stories...
But this is really what i feel..
My soul is dying,
they are tearing apart...
Like losing my inner soul...

I know all this are fairytales...
But they seem so true to me..
Every moment my heartbeat  pounded at the sight of you...

Is this what we call soulmate ?
or in fact ..
TRUE LOVE ?
I know im kind of crazy..
But ..
but...

yea...

to be continued...

Friday, March 21, 2014

#unwanted text

What is this?
All of the sudden.
I know it was meant to be a playful moment.
But have you ever think of how i feel?

Why must you awaken the sleeping soul of me?
Why must you give me false hope all over again?
Where is your girl?
Go to her..
She need you more than i do...

The unwanted text from you?
Is that your real concern ?
Or just the playful moment ?
I was depressed at the very moment ..
But happy at the same time.
But it wasn't you...

What you want me to say?
Yes, i miss you ?
I cannot say that right ?
Its like an atomic bomb in both ways.
It will hurt us both.

Thursday, March 13, 2014

Random feelings

Somethings that i didn't manage to tell you.
Or i didn't have the courage ?
Or maybe you dont even appreciate?

I told you that you are the first guy im going crazy over.
Stubborn over.
Lose myself to you. (in terms of character)

You are the first guy who made me felt so bless having you by my side.
Thanks for showing me your the other side when you are in love/ when you are with me.
I never expect this side of you from your normal character.
It was so unexpected.
But i truly appreciate.
Im blessed that im the first one to witness it and feel it.
It's so god damn cute i swear.
I know you are not good looking to others,
but GOD DAMN!
you look so right in my eyes.
I don't know why.
I'm so blinded by you and love.

I know i made a mistake.
But only imperfection makes things right ain't ?

I just wonder whatever you told M, is deep down from your heart or ?

There is just too much for me to put down.
I know i love you, not just like.
But i guess time is still not right yet for you to return to me..
Sigh..
my heart is aching.
my soul is dying.
SO DRAMA right?
but that how i feel from deep inside my heart.

Thursday, February 27, 2014

270214


270214 (UT unexpected meet up)

Today marks the 6th anniversary if we are still together. But we are separated.

Sorry I fell too hard for you.

I know I bring too much burden to you.

 I shouldn’t even have existed.

Im sorry appearing everywhere you go.

But this feeling doesn’t stop.

Its beyond me. Sorry to tell you that.

Its so cheesy, no one ever belief that.

Soul mates, what about it?

Sorry, but it exist in me.

It’s like the other part of me beyond my reach to feel so much for you.

I LOVE YOU. That all I want to say.

I’m sorry I didn’t stand by you till the end. I didn’t want to be a burden for you between your cliques.

I know im not “recognize” by them. I’m inferior to you.

IM SORRY. I REALLY WANT TO STAND BY YOU EVEN YOU ARE NOT MINE Just to begin with.

Im sorry for everything basically. 

I know your heart just beat a beat. Sorry for everything. IM SO SORRY!

Yea, I heard that you like someone else in your SEM 2 class. YES IM JEALOUS, but im in no position to do so anymore.  ISIT JUST A CRUSH? LIKE ? OR LOVE?

Its ok! IF that’s your happiness go for it. I wont stop you. Just remember I will be your guardian angel no matter what happen. You still can come to me.

Like others say, TRUE LOVE doesn’t have to be together. As long as seeing the other party happy, is just enough. Sometime true love get together doesn’t get it right.

 

As long as I LOVE YOU, it’s all that matter now.

Sunday, February 9, 2014

#Crazy over you

Reminisce:

saw you on friday morning.
You grown skinnier.
Haven't you been eating ?
Kind of worry...
Nobody buying you food during breaks ??
Please stop skipping meals...

Sighh...
Why am i still worrying about you when you are not even mine to begin with?

And been noticing but unsure
if you have start investing on markets...
PLEASE DONT BURN YOURSELF.
WORRIED x10

I know no invest no gain..
but just becareful...

Sorry but i miss you...

Thursday, January 30, 2014

#whatever

Reminisce:

Sigh...

My heart is too tired to feel anymore.
3 months has past.
My feelings for you have not faded.
I just hate people touching you.
Sigh...
Sorry ...
I'm not suppose to feel anymore.

I didnt try enough ?
Or what ?

3months wasn't enough.
take all the time you want.
Just dont take too long..
my time is almost up...

Praying hard that God will give me another chance.
May everything turn round.

Sorry that i love you...


Wednesday, January 29, 2014

#It hurts so badly

Reminisce:

How much it hurts me ?
When the person who make you happy wasn't me ?
The one who melts you wasn't me?

I swear my heart is aching, crying and bleeding.
Sighh...
I'm sorry.
I know i shouldn't feel like this anymore.
But it totally hurts.

I SHOULD BE OVER YOU by now.
But I'm not.
I bet IM IN LOVE WITH YOU DEEPLY..

Sorry i lost in this game.
Sorry for loving you.
Sorry for everything.
Sorry for my feelings.

IM SORRY FOR EVERYTHING BASICALLY.
I LOST FOR SURE.

Tuesday, January 28, 2014

#Heart beats for a reason

Reminisce:

OMG!
Because of just word from you,
My heart skips a beat.
Even it just a "LOL"
It means alot to me.

Sigh pie...
I guess you still have feeling for me?
Why is our relationship so tough?
Acting that everything is okay without each other.
When it actually mean alot to one another.

I almost had a heart attack.
So happy until i was shivering...

Sigh....
I miss you for everything..

Sunday, January 26, 2014

#Story of US

Reminisce:

OMO OMO!
You are back following me on twitter this afternoon.
SHOCKED* HAPPY*

Sigh...
But i guess i'm giving myself too much hope.

Let all this take it's natural course.
IF you are mine, you will be mine...

STORY OF US!
JUST COMPLICATED!

Saturday, January 25, 2014

# A blog that belongs to me

#Reminisce

Saying that i forget you,
I guess i'm bluffing myself.
I just don't understand what i love about you.

I tried.
Putting you back at my brain.
Trying not to miss you anymore.
Trying to name you the " BAD MAN"
BUT i just couldn't hate you.
IN FACT ,
I STILL LOVE YOU.

Trying to hide my feelings badly.
Trying to act like " I DONT CARE"
Trying to act like " I'M FINE WITHOUT YOU"

HOW RIDICULOUS?
First time, i'm doing so much for someone not related.
For what? I asked myself.

Everytime i see you, my heart skipped again.
No matter how hard i try to tell myself, IM OVER YOU.

Sometimes my friends are weird.
They want me get over you, they still mention you.
Sometimes, they even indirectly encourage me.
I dont know what to do..
I MISS YOU.
EVERYTHING.

Are you really over me ?

I'm sorry for being annoying.
Sorry for everything.
It's like i think you still feel for me,
but i don't have confidence for reading you anymore.

Are we suppose to end this story like this ?
#LEAVE ME HANGING AGAIN